'Cap ou pas cap?'

'Game on or not?' That's what they kept saying in "Love Me If You Dare". It's a French film about this boy and girl who are both outcasts and that similarity brings them together b/c they start playing this game where they dare each other to do these wild and crazy but totally awesome things that i'd never have to guts to do... well, i lied, i'd do it if there were someone to do them with and who wouldn't back out of it and leave me stranded. but anyway, they go through life daring each other... they dared each other to fail, to ruin weddings, to ruin relationships with others and there was this one fun part where they kept slapping their gym coach. it's a great movie and you should see it...

Quote of the Day: "Psychotic acts are funny after they happen but not while you're living them. Then, they're just scary" - Christina

.:Prince Charming:.

What do I perceive as my Prince Charming?

Well, Prince Charming candidates have to have what I consider the basics: tall (about half a foot to a foot taller than me - I'm 5'1"), handsome, built, chivalrous, smart, and funny.... Now's the hard part, the actual Prince Charming...

Prince Charming has to be taller than me because since I'm short already, I don't want a guy who is shorter than me. If he is at least six inches taller than me, then I can wear n inch heels and still be just a bit shorter than he is. Looking down at a guy is a turn off.
Prince Charming has to be handsome. I know this might seem shallow but if you think about it, personality may play a big part but that doesn't mean that physical attraction has no effect on the relationship. How can you stay with someone for a long time if you aren't physically attracted? Also, if he doesn't look good, it increases the chances of infidelity.
Prince Charming should be built. I would be so turned off if he couldn't carry me or didn't show that I could have enough confidence in him for him to carry me. I want a man.
That reminds me, restraint. A man who can't restrain himself wouldn't be a real man. When he's angry, he won't be able to hold back and make sure he won't do anything he'll regret. When he's tempted, he'll give in rather than pass it by and be faithful. He should be able to control himself.
Prince Charming is chivalrous. What Prince Charming doesn't treat his Princess like a Princess? I want Prince Charming to hold open doors, pull out my chair, stand up when I leave, and put himself in the line of danger rather than me. Basically, Prince Charming is well-mannered and protects me. Prince Charming would give me his jacket or hoodie or whatever it is he has when he sees me shiver or if he thinks (or I think) it is cold even if he is cold himself. If he has nothing to offer, he would hold me to shield me from the cold, to share body heat, and so that by concentrating on his touch I will forget about the cold. He will never make a promise he can't keep and will not break a promise. He won't lie to me even if I don't want to know the truth.
Prince Charming respects me. He respects my space. He respects me as a woman and a human being. And just as importantly, he has my respect.
Prince Charming is smart. He can teach me things about the world and life. He has his own opinions and doesn't depend on his older brother or idol to tell him what to think. He is stubborn but will sway if he is given irrefutable proof that he is wrong. He doesn't make me feel inferior though because I can teach him things as well. He can carry on a conversation with me and listens to me. He appreciates the beauty in the world and sees the beauty in things that no one else does as well.
Prince Charming is funny. He can make me smile when I cry. He can make me laugh when I'm mad. He can make everyone laugh. He thinks I'm funny and even if I'm not, he'll still laugh.
Prince Charming is considerate. When I'm sick, he'll be there to sit with me through the night while I sweat and he'll comfort me when I wake up at two in the morning because the fever woke me or something. He'll be there for me if I drink too much. He'll be the one who's holding up my head and putting a wet cloth on my forehead while I hug the toilet, telling me to not do something stupid like that again. He'll listen to me when I've been treated badly and I'm crying and babbling. When someone is sick, he'll come with me even if he doesn't want to, just to bring a basket or a prayer.
Prince Charming is very sweet and romantic. He'll know all the right words at all the right times and always be there for me. He won't let me down. I can always count on him. He'll arrange a candlelit dinner. We'll dance in the rain, sleep under the stars, have snowball fights, kiss in the light of a streetlamp, and hold hands as we walk on the beach. He'll give me a piggy-back ride just because. He'd call at 3 am just to see what I'm doing and because he wanted to tell me about the dream he just had about us. If I called at 3 am, he'd still answer and talk to me even though he's half-asleep. We wouldn't get bored of each other even if it were 50, 60 or 100 years later. He'd never sway from thinking I were the most beautiful creature he'd ever seen. He'd take me on a bed of sweet smelling rose petals and to the light of a thousand candles. He'd cuddle just because he wanted to feel me close to him even though it'd never be close enough. He'd defend me in every way possible. He'd come to every show or game or performance in which I performed with flowers, even if he picked them himself. He'd take my hand and kiss it. He'd lay on a hammock and read or nap with me. He'd be there.
Prince Charming is patient and forgiving. He is patient with everyone and will be wise enough to know that there are some people who are small-minded enough not to know better and will patiently guide them to do or be better. This is also why he is forgiving. He helps me to be a better person.
Prince Charming is spontaneous. He'll show up and give me flowers just because it's Wednesday. He'll pick me up from school to go to the park to feed the ducks. He'll come by IHOP just to sit and drink coffee for an hour and a half while I work, just because he wants to see me and be near me, even if he doesn't get to talk to me. He'll just watch me run by with my hair falling apart, make-up wearing off, my apron falling to the side and getting new syrup stains on my white shirt and just keep thinking, "Wow, she's beautiful, I'm so lucky".
Prince Charming is confident and self-assured. He will not be afraid to try new things. He won't need friends to agree or do something with him. He won't be afraid to do something without their permission. He will call me even if it means he'd have to answer to my entire family's interrogation first. He'll come with me to watch a chick flick and not fall asleep or be itching to run out or find every excuse to not go. He won't make me beg for him to go. He won't be afraid to go buy me tampons or pads.
Prince Charming is independent. He doesn't live with his parents after high school. He is responsible and can take care of himself. He takes care of his own bills and could take care of me too. He is also caring and grateful, so rather than letting his parents go to a nursing home, he'll take it on himself to take care of them for having cared for him when he was unable to.
Prince Charming takes risks. He'll do things because they're adrenaline rushing. He'll go out to drink with me but not without unless he has let me know, not because he has to but because he respects me enough to. We'll take me skydiving and bungee jumping and Mt. Everest climbing. We'd go camping so we could enjoy some time alone, away from everything, even if it's just in a park nearby.
Prince Charming is talented. He serenades me sometimes because a song pops into his head. He knows how to play the guitar and sing at the same time. He can play the drums or the trumpet. He can dance. He can whistle with his fingers. He can do backflips or frontflips. He knows how to skate. He can swim. He can cook. He can play sports and video games too. He can fix up the house. He can garden and manicure the lawn without having to pay someone to do it.
Prince Charming has flaws. A Perfect Man doesn't need anyone but himself. He will not be able to do everything but he will always try. He will secretly be afraid of snakes or heights but try to hide it so that others won't panic even more. He'll get nervous when he has to meet my parents and family yet because he is confident enough, he will not try to be invisible but rather, show them why it is that I like him so much. He'll be afraid for his loved ones' safety.

Prince Charming will NEVER betray me. Prince Charming always keeps my best interests in mind because...

Most importantly, Prince Charming loves me. To him, I am his first priority. To me, he is mine. He is my better half and I am his.

~~TsheilynaTchang~~

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Doing A Good Deed

I'm running a fundraising project to raise money for villages in Mauritania. I'm doing a penny war between the governor's school halls. I just started yesterday and I'm hoping we get a bunch of money to send. I learned something. Three dollars can sustain a child's life for a whole month in Mauritania! Over here, we can't even get a Mickey D's combo! Sandals are only a dollar in Mauritania and they can only afford one pair per year! And we're over here spending a hundred dollars on a pair of Nike's... I don't think we should give up everything to make their lives better, that's worthless. I enjoy my lifestyle. I think they should have the same comfort...

It is only my fourth day here at Governor's School but i feel like i have been here for a while. Not in a bad way. I really enjoy this. I feel more free, not cooped up like i was at home. I go where i want and do what i want and there are far less restrictions because we are expected to be adults. The only real restrictions we have are curfews, boundaries and public displays of affection. They don't really bug me that much but i wouldn't be able to go like that for a whole year. Oh yeah, and there are only two punishments here. The minor punishment is that we get early curfew, that is if we break curfew or forget to sign-out or sign-in when we go off campus. The other punishment has become a student body-wide joke. If someone questions an action, like, is it against the rules to go here or there? The other students usually warn that person not to do it or he or she will get "summarily dismissed". It's a joke because "summarily" is so emphasized and it's kind of unnecessary but i guess it's the best way to get it across to us that it's not an empty threat. I just don't get why they couldn't say "immediately". Probably becasue it wouldn't draw as much attention.

I have gotten my first research assignment on anthropology. What is the Purpose of Anthropology? I dunno... Ruth Benedict said, "The purpose of Anthropology is to make the world safe for human differences." I suppose that would be true because if we study human emotions and actions, those studies would probably show how a person would react in certain situations, thus reducing the amount of ethnicentrism. Heh heh, heck yeah, i learned a new word. Ethnicentrism means that one assumes his or her beliefs and culture is correct and that any differing belief or culture is wrong. That is having a really small mind. It's a shame that we even have anyone like that.

Anyway, I need to get back to my research. I don't want to get "summarily dismissed".

A New Experience Commences

i am typing this from the computer at meredith college where i am at governor's school! heck yeah! it's great, challenging, interesting, and i am learning something new everyday... and this is only day three. day one was moving in day and i still learned a whole bunch of stuff. i like learning. i do hope that i don't get a brain overload though... anyway, i have to go though because i have to do the assignments i was just given...

Routine...

Wow... it's been a month since my last post already!
incredible how time flies...

anyway, i recieved good news in FOCUS (homeroom) today...

I'M A JUNIOR MARSHALL!!

actually, to be exact, i'm seventh in the class, yep, 7 out of 170... oh yeah,
and special congrats to the head junior marshall, my friend
Shraddha Patel
who is the junior class genius... valedictorian!
anyway, i guess that means i only have to beat 6 people to get first...
the tough part is i'm probably friends with them all
and i'm losing motivation fast
i mean...
what's the point of it all? study, test, learn, study, test...
let's see... in mathematical terms:

Test(Learn+Study)=No PlayNo Play=Dullness * Boredom=Freak
Dullness=Weird
Boredom=Insanity
Learn+Study=Geek+Nerd
Geek+Nerd=Loser
Test=Worry
Worry*Loser=Psychotic Dork
Psychotic Dork+Time=Someone Who Dies Young

You see what this all boils down to?! I hate this routine but it's what our stupid lives
revolve around!
Speaking of routine, i could make writing here a monthly routine
since i only write like once a month... anyway

Today is National Weed Day
And i'm here... alone, pathetic, and not out there being irresponsible...
This sucks...
Not that i would do the stuff anyway...
But it'd be the fact that i'm out there that matters...

anyway... ricky helms asked me out again like five times today...
i'm debating on whether to say yes or not...
i guess i'll just have to see what ricky hubert has to say to that...
ugh...
when it rains
it pours...
shoot...
it doesn't even give us the luxury of pouring
it floods...