Sunday, January 27, 2013

Unpacking is like Christmas where you love every present.

I am 19 hours and 7 boxes deep into unpacking my apartment. In two days, I will have lived here for a year. Among my best finds are my books, pictures from Lollapalooza, the itinerary for a trip to Spain, and a piece of paper that reads:

"they did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like 'maybe we should just be friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.Love me when I least deserve it because that's when I really need it.Love comes when manipulation stops; when you think more about the other person than about his or her reactions to you. When you dare to reveal yourself fully. When you dare to be vulnerable.We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.And now here is my secret, a very simple secret; it is only with the heart that one can see rightly, what is essential is invisible to the eye.Perhaps love is the process of my gently leading you back to yourself.Life has taught us that love does not consist in gazing at each other, but in looking together in the same direction.Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep...wait for the one who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you...The one who turns to his friends and says, 'That's her.'The love that lasts the longest is the love that is never returned.I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me. Love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person. Love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of. Love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you.One of the hardest things in life is watching the person you love, love someone else.If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were.One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter.Trying to make someone fall in love with you is about as pointless as trying to control who you fall in love with.Love is just a word until someone comes along and gives it meaning.Just so you know, there a space in my heart that only you can fill. Just so you know, I loved you then, and I guess I always will.Love is just love. Unexplainable.Have you ever been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens up your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all the defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it.There are four questions of value in life: What is sacred? Of what is the spirit made? What is worth living for? And what is worth dying for? The answer to each is the same. Only love.You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see, but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel.Love is not blind; it simply enables one to see things others fail to see.It is better to lose your pride with someone you love than to lose someone you love with your useless pride.Love is saying 'I feel differently' instead of 'You're wrong.'True love burns brightest, but the brightest flames leave the deepest scars.The worst thing you can do for love is deny it; so when you find that special someone, don't let anyone or anything get in your way.We say we love flowers, yet we pluck them. We say we love trees, yet we cut them down. And people wonder why some are afraid when told they are loved.You've spent your time running and running, trying to catch up with something that has never been there for you. And all you've done is go farther and farther away from the precious love that's been waiting for you all the time.The one who loves you will make you weep.You don't love someone for their looks, or their clothes, or their fancy car, but because they sing a song only you can hear.I would rather have eyes that cannot see, ears that cannot hear, lips that cannot speak, than a heart that cannot love.Spiteful words can hurt your feelings, but silence breaks your heart.Eventually, you will come to understand that love hears everything, and love is all there is.There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are the messengers of overwhelming grief...and unspeakable love.Love is when you shed a tear and still want him, when he ignores you and you still care, when he loves someone else but you still smile and say, 'I'm happy for you,' when all you really do is cry.To love someone is nothing. To be loved by someone is something. But to be loved by the one you love is everything.If I never met you, I wouldn't like you. If I didn't like you, I wouldn't love you. If I didn't love you, I wouldn't miss you. But I did, I do, and I will.In love, it is better to know and be disappointed, than to not know and always wonder.To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing."